Beautiful Day...

Well...here it begins again...starting a day without the welcoming of the morning by the ever so graceful sun! Lost one hour... I should be well accustomed to it by now as I have been in a country with daylight savings scheme for a while now and yet I STILL wake up all groggy. :-S

Yawnn...yawwnn!! Just another day..(you can hear the excitement in my voice right?) Well the thrill of knowing you have a long day ahead is just '------', (I just have no words to express the feeling). Tick..Tock!...time's ticking away. Work time's in session!!

Here are some pictures on a beautiful and windy day (freezing is more like it :P)...

Memories that Linger...

Just like the waves in the ocean, some things are unavoidable in life... Memories are part of you and yet sometimes you want to wash your hands clean off of it. Memories that linger are not always a great one. The ones you try to forget are the ones that always seems to stick, I wonder why... Is it because it has had the reverse psychology effect on them? (For so many things, reverse psychology seems to work great: especially things like when someone says, "I want you to not remember this! It's very critical you forget everything I just said". :P ) If not while you're awake...then it comes and bug you in your dreams. Pretty lame!!...considering sleep is mainly for relaxation purposes. Time to utilize some alternative methods :-) Maybe going shopping! :P (Girls supposedly favorite thing to do as a pass-time right? :D I love malls that are humongous!! Of course if they went all out with the designs and setting then it's a bonus. Casinos are designed in that fashion! It's awesome!! I guess the point being them never wanting you to leave there...I suppose it makes sense that they make it attractive to all the people.)

Anyway, time for some music!!

Black Clouds...foretelling the forecast

Why is it that seemingly every weekend the weather wants to have a field day? I mean...isn't it bad enough that we're cooped up in a cage every day of the week but now we're forced to hideout again in the weekend!! If not T-storms with incredibly high winds, then it's Blizzard!! Come on!! Isn't it time for Spring already? (Daylight saving thing is this sunday I think...we're going to lose hour... I definitely want to see some spring weather!!) It's about due...although I am not an extreme fan of summer :S Well I guess I can't be ever satisfied :P

Bla bla bla...WHATEVER!!! I am too tired today. Too much bla bla bla junk...been quite a long day. Time for things to do that would refresh and rejuvenate me!! Any thoughts you'd like to share? Come on Folks!! My mind has totally shut off on me..and all the ideas I had..have been utilized!! Nothing to go on by anymore :'( (so sad!!).

Calm before the storm or after?

That is the question folks :P NOT!! It's always hard to come up with topics you know. Sometimes you just want to jibber jabber without a formal title. But then there is the title section and I'm forced to wonder what I should put on it. :S Well there's that... Since I came up with that weird title...why not talk about it a little. So they say there is a sudden calmness felt just before the storm. Is that really true?...to me it always felt like there was a certain calmness right after the storm. People would come out and stare out at the devastation all around them with the look of shock in their faces. Not a word could escape their mouth.... (For a short time...Don't know how long that would last tho!!).

Finally the storm clouds are moving on out! Probably following 'the jeffersons' foot steps :P Good sign I guess...but I had a crazy dream though. Well No!! I don't dream about weather :P I saw people from previous work ... and then the place was being renovated or something (more like it was filled with pudding like things :P....maybe I was hungry :S). It was weird, I wonder where those thoughts came from. I don't really remember dreams all that well so maybe I am mixing up everything and creating a spaghetti out of it. Or maybe it's a mental note to self...that it's time to send a little 'hello' note. :-) Sure has been a while... Time flies! (I have heard of time flying when you're having fun but how about when you're not?) Since I just made that comment about time flying...does that mean I am having a blast? I wonder! :D

So this thought of giving gifts came up when someone decided that I might have some great suggestions on giving gifts to boyfriends. :S LOL....I don't like giving gift!! Call me uncaring...lazy...good for nothing... bla bla junk whatever!! :D I mean why do we have to give gifts..cards...throw parties..bla bla bla? I mean it's not like everything you give them...they're gonna love it you know? (Admit it...you know you've thrown away some things after it had stayed boxed up for years and year. Some may have re-gifted em....Come On!! Confession is good for the soul!! :P) You end up thinking they might like this and that but at the end they might hate it and just keep it because someone special gave it to them or maybe they'll just switch em back :D I would!! (or re-gift em :P Shhhh!!) I mean how would anyone know what you like unless they constantly tell you that they like this this and that right? Like me :P I am not really big on any festivities, celebrations, or occasions...so everything like that is so trivial. I don't care much about or even put any thought into it. Actually I don't even remember anyone's birthday ..even my own family's. Okay maybe that's a sad thing :P but I don't care!!! If I remember, I'll do something ...if not no one is there grieving about it...which is awesome!! I always found that girls were the one who were so into all of this gift giving things and remembering every single things. Since my memory is not all that great (sure signs of getting old :P )...I have always liked the uncaring ways of the guys :P It's awesome...it puts less burden on my shoulder :P Less stress = less gray hairs!!... right ? :D Who would want gray hairs...come on!! Not me!! :P (No wonder guys are so uncaring right? They're afraid of getting bald!! :P) I don't think I need to put it out there how answer to that question turned out :P (So much for that!!)

Laa Dee Daa...

Change Change Change... Why is there always a change and why are people in general hate change?...including me of course!! I really really hate it. It takes you a while to get accustomed to things and just when you feel comfortable...the change occurs. It's not usually the planned changes that bothers me the most, it's the unplanned ones!! Although change is normal and it's an eventual thing as seen by the progression in the technology and such. :-) Even so, it doesn't make me feel any better! I wonder if there is a way to better handle changes.

Anyway what brought that on? Well here I am assigned to write some papers.. Woohoo!!! (The joy!!) Anyway, every 5 minute they keep on changing formats and what nots!! Every person have their opinions and so on but come on...at least come to a compromise!!! Or do they just love to irritate one another? :P Whatever!!! That's when it's time for me to get some coffee and relax a bit until things settle down a bit so you can take charge and throw a completely insane plan out there so it can start all over again!! :P How fun is that? :D [Gotta keep myself fully entertained at all times you know!! :-)]

Today is another downpour!! This place is great...it seems to match my mood and change it 180 degrees :-) I was reading this book yesterday...and darned if I remember anything! :P Now does that tell me a thing or two about the book? (Quit Quit Quit!!) Well first part was interesting then the author I guess decided it was getting too exciting and kept the readers at the edge of the seat too much so decided to flip the direction completely and bore the heck out of them (This is all hypothetical of course). Since the beginning part was left hanging I am left wondering what happens next you know...so I decided to give it a chance still. :D

Helpless

Like some volcano that laid dormant,
With its chaotic and random eruptions…
Inner workings of the troubled mind,
Forever is doomed to its erratic actions.

Paralyzing thoughts held steadfastly,
While bolts of lightning spread within…
Thoughts of panic overlapped the mind,
As was once destined for its irregularity.

Seeking voices with sound reasoning,
Worthy logic had no solid institution…
Heavenly abode that remained hidden,
In the depths of the mind forever buried.

Strength for resistance remained elusive,
As motivational seeds saw no light of day…
Precedence came with firing of neurons,
As illusive forms took rapid enactment.

Efforts of resistance seemed rather futile,
As selfish thoughts arose like blazing fire…
Feelings of betrayal constrained all action,
As search for solace involved sacrifices.

Morning Buzz...

There are times when you start out your day with a heart on fire (no...not a heart attack!!...it could be signs of it tho :S). Anyway...you feel anxious and this irking feeling of 'something is wrong!' hovers about you all day long. Hmm..maybe a cartoonish picture of thunder clouds with occasional lightning following you all day long paints a better picture. :-)

So here I am at the beginning of the day...it hasn't ended yet..'No...not yet!' I try to focus on writing papers...Oh the joy!!...it's oozing out of me..can't you see? That's not really the problem. Things like that get done when it's supposed to be done because you don't really have a choice in the matter. Well I guess you do have a choice...you always do! But when your choices could lead to a disaster!! you don't really have a choice, do you now? No matter how much you want to believe you have a choice in the matter...I don't feel it if I am stuck.

It's a beautiful cold day in mystic!! (Mystic is a cool and catchy name dont' you think so? That's why I decided to use that :P ). The sun is shining..(its daily job :P )...giving the illusion of beautiful summer day. What else can you ask for right? :P Spring is just around the corner!! I see the sun in the morning!!!...you have to enjoy that! ..although I am a fan of walking when the sun is just about coming out but not yet! I guess when the time changes...(woohoo save the daylight!!)...I will have to say goodbye to the bright and sunny mornings...so I decided after much thought (yeah right!!) to enjoy it while it lasts.

Tuesday March 4, 2008

Buzz buzz buzz....The coffee Buzz....and for me Hot chocolate in the morning!! Ahhhh....the sweet aroma!! It's just a thing to give you enough of a push to get the long day started...even though I am not a fan of it :-)

So the cloud from yesterday is still hovering above...but today they brought friends along!!! (Party...I suppose and I am invited!! Woohooo!) Looks like it's going to be a downpour today....well I won't complain though. The temperature is up at least :-) It's the little things in life that makes everything seem worthwhile isn't it?

Everyday you learn new things. And guess what I learned today? There are whole lot of raccoons here in this area. I almost ran over it :S That was a thrill!! :P I guess if you're not awake by then...nothing would wake you up!! (well that might be a bit of exaggeration...or NOT). I wonder if they could be rabid...last time I saw one scurrying past the mail box area :S Well I guess I should be happy that it's not a fox right? Although the possibility of one being around is really high. Just a few days ago...I was so lucky to be engraced by the wonderful perfume of a skunk. :-) I mean who wouldn't love the outdoors? ... it's great!! The chance to experience the live world and fresh air rather than a cube's stale air and contant dull and not to mention fake sceneries that we stick to the wall to pretend we're in paradise!! :P It'd be great to take pictures too. Hmmm...that reminds me...I need to get a camera!! :S List keeps growing doesn't it? :P Well that's why I guess someone invented POST IT notes!! I can stick em all over the place!!! :-)... I'll be buried over it soon it seems.