Undeniable Truth: December 2007

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Tick...Tock...

So here I am … I guess I am in no mood to write. On top of that, it is holiday season and you know what that means? .It means even if you wanted to write, you won’t want to write. Ok, ok, that was plain BS there …

Actually, people are taking vacation and disappearing like crazy. Since I don’t have any vacation hours as of today, I am basically stuck here till the end of the holidays. How lame is that? I know…gee wheeze right?

Today really feels like Friday to me, since it is most of my colleagues’ last day before the holidays. I am just waiting here counting of the hours, and minutes…and as the time nears the end…even the seconds are moving like it’s an hour hand!! Stupid sense of time…your mind plays a real trick with you, doesn’t it?

Anyway, I got more piles of junk to read just now. That is lame too…for I have no desire to read. Christmas lunch party was filled with awesome food… so guess what that could mean? I am stuffed and ready to flop any minute. It doesn’t look good for the rest of the day for sure.

Chocolates, you say? Well I thought it would wake me up…but no… it’s having no effects of that sort on me as of this minute. Saying that, I started to write even though I have no particular desire to write hoping that this would be one way to kill time of course!!

Did it work? Seems to be…but don’t make me look at the clock again you know!! That would just override this grand effort of mine. Time’s ticking away and no matter what you say it will still keep on ticking but then… why does it seem to slow down if you keep looking at it? It’s a bit of a conundrum, isn’t it? In reality, of course, you know it’s not…but then why is so hard to make your mind believe it’s otherwise? Ah well…that’s something I no longer want to ponder on about. I got better things to do right? LOL … big AS IF should follow that statement!!

Okay!! So what else is going on with me?

Hmmmm…

Guess nothing interesting!!!

The rule is…if you have to wait and think about it for more than thirty seconds, then most likely there is nothing interesting going on. What say you?

You know what actually… This font is really eye catching, well to me anyway! Maybe that’s the reason I haven’t already closed this document. The more I write, the more I want to keep writing gibberish. I love the capital fonts on this. It sort of reminds me of calligraphy. I wish I knew how to write like this for real!! Maybe, I should give it a shot one of these days!

It looks like I am writing a letter to someone!

Not bad huh?…

Monday, December 10, 2007

Solitary Moments

Why is it that sometimes you have no desire to talk to anyone? No desire to pick up the phone and say hello...no desire to dial the number...no desire to drop a line...

Is that being selfish? ... wanting to be left alone?

Is that being depressed? (If so, why?)

Why do people come to the conclusion that if you don't want to talk, you are depressed? Can't one just want to be alone to think or do something? Isn't the best work done, when you are left alone?? For example, coming up with a brilliant idea while taking a shower!! Eureka!!! (Not that I have had that happening :P but that's how it is... you think outside the box if you have this luxury of peace and quiet sometimes. Of course I am not saying this happens all the time because many ideas can be formed during times when you bounce ideas from here to there.)

Maybe all I needed was some peace and quiet...without being hounded by anyone querying me of my unusual habits (I wouldn't say this is very unusual in my case tho :P I like to have my own space...to be in the zone!!)

Why do I feel as if I am bombarded with phone calls? I just lose words sometimes...as if everything I have wanted to say has already been said and there is nothing left to say anymore. It's not like it would never come, I mean there's million and one things to talk about...it will come when it will.

Of course calls doesn't necessarily mean that you have to have something to talk about, but it's a PHONE...if you don't talk through it then why are you going to just hold on to it? It's not like being there in person... In person at least if you have nothing to say, you can do other things...there are plenty of options. People calling and having nothing to talk about means a rather awkward silence... If that was going to be so...isn't it better to have not called? or picked up?

Consider a video conference with your friend, now what would it be like if both of you had nothing to say... That's pretty awkward :S I woudn't be fond of standing in front of a camera saying nothing :P I am not much of a talker really unless there is something to talk about of course... :D

Another thing with me is that...if someone calls and I have nothing to say and they have nothing to say....I start getting irritated. Having a conversation should be something natural...something liberating in a way because it should take your frustrations out. It's casual moments where you chill, one should not find it a stressful thing.

What do you do when you can't write when you try to write? You wait for the next day when you're in the mood. That's how everything is...there's a flow to all things you do. You may not recognize it but there's always a flow to everything that's happening. Sometimes you line up with other people's flow and everything seems to go smoothly and sometimes you take a different path of flow and be distant to the original flow of things. That shouldn't mean that something is wrong with you though. Maybe it would seem rude and selfish even to not consider others but is it truly wrong? Wrong to be yourself?

If things you did for fun became like a chore...why would you even want to do anything right? There are plenty of things in the world where you do things because you have to do it. Somethings...should be done for YOU only... The ability to choose is the freedom you have... If there was no options on some little things, I wonder how everyone would be...

In another note...

.... all these things you think you choose for yourself... they are after all a consequence of things. So in a way...maybe you are being led to the path you don't even want. It only feels like you are choosing this path by yourown might...but in reality...that is not really true.

The facade of freedom? At the end...is everything being controlled?.

Saturday, December 8, 2007

what matters...

I guess the hard part to understand about girls from guys is the simple fact of how important the small things can be taken. For so many girls....simple...small things weigh more in value than big things...

From simple things they can find out how much a person really care about them.... I don't know why it's so hard to understand you know... I mean...some things are ok..granted stupid!! ...such as remembering birthday for instance..or the day you first met...those things could be seen as knitty gritty things..and worthless in reality even...but sometimes small behaviors/actions that one cannot really notice can have a great affect on the other person. I am sure everyone has experienced something similar to this...may it be from your partner or from a friend..colleague...acquaintance anyone for that matter. You get hurt by people's negligence ... Something so meaningless could harm a lot to some... I know no one can avoid that!! If I said I have never done that once in my life...that would be lying. After all how would I know what hurt others... Everyone has their own level of tolerance. Maybe I shouldn't even complain about it, because I may have done the same thing to someone in my life. That doesn't mean what happened didn't make me any sadder. ^_^

Why am I talking about this? well... that's another story. I guess, I should just let it go...but for me I guess it does mean a lot you know? Maybe to a lot of people it would seem just cruel...or maybe some even just ignore it like it's nothing...but me? hmmm what can i say... I guess I am one of those people who like to take a little things and turn it into a huge thing :P

Ah well...i think it's messed to not consider how it would impact others on the comments they make... (Maybe I should heed my own words? ) If it was a stranger ... ok I would understand...coz they don't know any better... even if it was acquaintance or distant friends I would care less....but from someone you actually care about??...it's just a bit too hard to swallow.

I guess that's how life is... touche'...
live and learn to ignore...
or
live and do something if u can do something about it rather than Bsing here in the blog right? :P

I know I know...I got it...

Sun Sign: Scorpio by Astrology.com

Scorpio is the eighth Sign of the Zodiac, and you shouldn't take that lightly. Those born under this Sign are dead serious in their mission to learn about others. There's no fluff or chatter for Scorpios, either: these folks will zero in on the essential questions, gleaning the secrets that lie within. Scorpios concern themselves with beginnings and endings, and are unafraid of either; they also travel in a world which is black and white and has little use for gray. The curiosity of Scorpios is immeasurable, which may be why they are such adept investigators. These folks love to probe and know how to get to the bottom of things. The fact that they have a keen sense of intuition certainly helps. It's the Scorpion which symbolizes Scorpios, and it's no accident. Much like the Scorpion would rather kill itself than be killed, those born under this Sign are the ones who are in ultimate control of their destiny. It is life on the Scorpion's terms, too, since these folks promote their agenda (they are quite the executives) and see to it that things go forward.

Others may find this overbearing (it can be) and even self-destructive, but that's the beauty of the Scorpion: these folks have tremendous regenerative powers, much like the literal Scorpion can lose its tail and promptly grow a new one. Fearless Scorpions rarely lose, per se, they just keep on going, since they are stubborn and determined to succeed (this Scorpio trait is in keeping with the Fixed Quality assigned to this Sign). Scorpios work as hard as they do so they can someday sit back and feel satisfied with themselves. These folks are intense, passionate and filled with desire. They're also complex and secretive, so don't expect to get much out of them, lest they become suspicious and exit stage left. It's best not to bet against Scorpios, either, since these folks are surprisingly resourceful. Scorpio is ruled by the Planets Mars and Pluto. Mars was the God of War in ancient Roman mythology and is the first (and most ancient) ruler of Scorpio. When Pluto was discovered in the 20th century, it was also assigned to this Sign. Pluto was known as the God of the Underworld in ancient Roman times, so when coupled with Mars, expect some intense energy to head toward Scorpions here on Earth. This planetary combo makes for people who are motivated, penetrating and aware. Scorpions don't miss much, since they are highly attuned to the vibrations of others. They are intuitive, probing and very focused on knowing who's who and what's what. Scorpions can lose their temper (and even become vengeful) when someone gets in their way, so it's best to give them plenty of room.

Remember, they're unafraid, and a loss today simply means an opportunity for victory tomorrow. The Element associated with Scorpio is Water. As opposed to the 'roiling seas' seen in other Water Signs, a better motto for Scorpions would be 'still waters run deep.' Those born under this Sign are as emotional as their waterborne brethren, it's just that they're not as likely to show it. The Scorpio's emotions are repressed, kept under cover. Again, secrets to be used another day. That said, be aware that these folks are clever, perceptive and always in the mix. Their ability to see into things can sometimes be a curse for Scorpions, however, since they can take an insignificant matter and turn it into a huge slight. Beware the Scorpion who feels crossed! These folks can turn vindictive in no time flat. Luckily, once Scorpions catch their breath, they will return to their usual determined and loyal (albeit strong-willed) ways. Finally, while Scorpions aren't above some subtle manipulation to get what they want, they'd much rather take a scientific, even mystical path. The Scorpio-born are powerful and passionate, qualities which serve them well, as long as they don't let them deteriorate into self-indulgence or compulsion. Scorpios love competition in both work and play, which is why they'll air it out in sports and games. Extreme sports are right up the Scorpion's alley, as is most anything which will test their mettle. They've got to have an adversary, since it makes the game that much more fun. The Scorpion's colors? Powerful red and serious black. When it comes to love, though, Scorpions soften up a bit and are caring and devoted with their lovers, even if they do hold on a bit tight. Scorpions are also lusty in the extreme (how else?), so they need to be mindful of their reproductive organs. The great strength of the Scorpio-born is in their determination, passion and motivation. Scorpions don't know the word quit, which is why they usually get the job done. A powerhouse? Like no other

Numerology

Life Path Number: SIX

Your Life-Path number is probably the most influential numerological aspect to be considered. This number is determined by your birth date and represents who you are at this time. It indicates specific traits that are present and will likely be active and influential throughout your lifetime. It is the overall number that determines much of what will be important to you and how you will handle things as they come.

If your Life-Path number is SIX, a sense of responsibility will likely be prominent for you. SIXES are considered to be the most domestic of numbers and live a path related to leadership through example. This assumption of responsibility generally means that as a SIX, you're always there to help others in any way you can. In fact, you must need to feel useful in order to be truly happy.

Those with a SIX Life-Path are usually very versatile and can communicate across any generation gap. SIXES are idealistic and usually recognize that wisdom, understanding and balance are the cornerstones to assume responsibility in the best possible way.

It is common for SIXES to be devoted to their families and homes. This is usually the first priority for a SIX with helping the community coming a close second. Key qualities/words for a SIX Life-Path are responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, sympathy and family.

It can also be common for a SIX personality to assume far more responsibility than what's necessary. At times this can leave you drained and exhausted. Other areas that may require development for a SIX are a tendency towards exaggeration, over expansion or self-righteousness. While you will almost always mean well as a SIX, behaviors such as meddling or interfering (especially in family matters) will likely lead to troubles.

The life purpose for a SIX is to embrace the ability to assume responsibility in balance and to provide advice, service and support to those around you and in the greater community. To deny oneself this experience as a SIX will almost inevitably lead to feelings of unsatisfaction. As relationships tend to spring from the SIXES actions, loneliness and isolation can also occur if this path is denied.

It can be challenging for some SIXES to take on the responsibility for what's around them in a healthy balance. Careful planning and consideration for the self as well as others will alleviate feelings of overwhelm or guilt. Be careful not to be too critical or hard on yourself if you can't do it all. Your path is one of assuming only what you are able.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Tick...Tock...

Monday, December 10, 2007

Solitary Moments

Saturday, December 8, 2007

what matters...

A Moonlit Night!!

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