Undeniable Truth: Trapped By Fear

Friday, February 23, 2007

Trapped By Fear

The more I tried,
the more I failed.
I tried and avoided you,
but my heart beckoned for you more.
I ignored my thoughts,
and tears poured with passion.
I subdued my conscious thoughts,
and my subconscious screamed out loud.
Freedom is what my heart yearned for,
and I chained it to the ground.
Trying to protect?
protection from what? and whom?
Questions and more questions,
what is it that I am truly afraid of?
Bottled up emotions,
outlet only the vastness of shadows.
Main source of fear,
totally lost in oblivion.

You showed me the way,
and briefly, all the pain melted away.
Like the snow melts away,
when the sun rises after a brief interlude.
You were the light for me,
light that filled my dark heart.
Dream a little higher you’d say,
but I was too engulfed by the darkness.
Be free from your darkness you’d say,
but darkness was my only consolation.
You believed in me,
but fear kept me still.
Fear had a terrible hold on my heart,
you could see it all too clearly.
It was a daunting task to break away,
and I was too distraught by failing miserably.
Ashamed, I broke away from you,
seeking solace where I could find none.
Disappeared into darkness,
now my one and only comforter.

The End.

4 comments:

Juggy said...: :O
For whom is it written??..
Now don't put disclaimer as Phantom did!!..:P
Saprasanga Byakhya garnus na!!..:P; February 24, 2007 at 8:14 AM
AeutiKT said...: for myself ni :-P
more like an eye opener sorta thing if u get what i mean [i don't get it but u mite :-)]

juggyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy I like your profile picture here :-D
it's like Nowhere man...
i don't know where i got that from...it was a spur of the moment thing....now i forgot the reason :-)

P.S. i haven't understood the last sentence yet.. trying to decipher it ~.^_^.~; February 24, 2007 at 4:18 PM
Unknown said...: Thank you.

I'm there too...

Yearning to come back into Love,

Out of the shawdows....

To dispell the fear, overcome the darkness...

If you've found a way..let me know..

peace; December 26, 2007 at 12:10 AM
Anonymous said...: Opulently I acquiesce in but I contemplate the brief should have more info then it has.; February 9, 2010 at 3:05 PM

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Sun Sign: Scorpio by Astrology.com

Scorpio is the eighth Sign of the Zodiac, and you shouldn't take that lightly. Those born under this Sign are dead serious in their mission to learn about others. There's no fluff or chatter for Scorpios, either: these folks will zero in on the essential questions, gleaning the secrets that lie within. Scorpios concern themselves with beginnings and endings, and are unafraid of either; they also travel in a world which is black and white and has little use for gray. The curiosity of Scorpios is immeasurable, which may be why they are such adept investigators. These folks love to probe and know how to get to the bottom of things. The fact that they have a keen sense of intuition certainly helps. It's the Scorpion which symbolizes Scorpios, and it's no accident. Much like the Scorpion would rather kill itself than be killed, those born under this Sign are the ones who are in ultimate control of their destiny. It is life on the Scorpion's terms, too, since these folks promote their agenda (they are quite the executives) and see to it that things go forward.

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Remember, they're unafraid, and a loss today simply means an opportunity for victory tomorrow. The Element associated with Scorpio is Water. As opposed to the 'roiling seas' seen in other Water Signs, a better motto for Scorpions would be 'still waters run deep.' Those born under this Sign are as emotional as their waterborne brethren, it's just that they're not as likely to show it. The Scorpio's emotions are repressed, kept under cover. Again, secrets to be used another day. That said, be aware that these folks are clever, perceptive and always in the mix. Their ability to see into things can sometimes be a curse for Scorpions, however, since they can take an insignificant matter and turn it into a huge slight. Beware the Scorpion who feels crossed! These folks can turn vindictive in no time flat. Luckily, once Scorpions catch their breath, they will return to their usual determined and loyal (albeit strong-willed) ways. Finally, while Scorpions aren't above some subtle manipulation to get what they want, they'd much rather take a scientific, even mystical path. The Scorpio-born are powerful and passionate, qualities which serve them well, as long as they don't let them deteriorate into self-indulgence or compulsion. Scorpios love competition in both work and play, which is why they'll air it out in sports and games. Extreme sports are right up the Scorpion's alley, as is most anything which will test their mettle. They've got to have an adversary, since it makes the game that much more fun. The Scorpion's colors? Powerful red and serious black. When it comes to love, though, Scorpions soften up a bit and are caring and devoted with their lovers, even if they do hold on a bit tight. Scorpions are also lusty in the extreme (how else?), so they need to be mindful of their reproductive organs. The great strength of the Scorpio-born is in their determination, passion and motivation. Scorpions don't know the word quit, which is why they usually get the job done. A powerhouse? Like no other

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Life Path Number: SIX

Your Life-Path number is probably the most influential numerological aspect to be considered. This number is determined by your birth date and represents who you are at this time. It indicates specific traits that are present and will likely be active and influential throughout your lifetime. It is the overall number that determines much of what will be important to you and how you will handle things as they come.

If your Life-Path number is SIX, a sense of responsibility will likely be prominent for you. SIXES are considered to be the most domestic of numbers and live a path related to leadership through example. This assumption of responsibility generally means that as a SIX, you're always there to help others in any way you can. In fact, you must need to feel useful in order to be truly happy.

Those with a SIX Life-Path are usually very versatile and can communicate across any generation gap. SIXES are idealistic and usually recognize that wisdom, understanding and balance are the cornerstones to assume responsibility in the best possible way.

It is common for SIXES to be devoted to their families and homes. This is usually the first priority for a SIX with helping the community coming a close second. Key qualities/words for a SIX Life-Path are responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, sympathy and family.

It can also be common for a SIX personality to assume far more responsibility than what's necessary. At times this can leave you drained and exhausted. Other areas that may require development for a SIX are a tendency towards exaggeration, over expansion or self-righteousness. While you will almost always mean well as a SIX, behaviors such as meddling or interfering (especially in family matters) will likely lead to troubles.

The life purpose for a SIX is to embrace the ability to assume responsibility in balance and to provide advice, service and support to those around you and in the greater community. To deny oneself this experience as a SIX will almost inevitably lead to feelings of unsatisfaction. As relationships tend to spring from the SIXES actions, loneliness and isolation can also occur if this path is denied.

It can be challenging for some SIXES to take on the responsibility for what's around them in a healthy balance. Careful planning and consideration for the self as well as others will alleviate feelings of overwhelm or guilt. Be careful not to be too critical or hard on yourself if you can't do it all. Your path is one of assuming only what you are able.

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